As many of you know, I went on a women's retreat with the Chosen Women of God this weekend. Let me first say that it was simply AMAZING and I had such a blast! I can't even describe the whole experience in one word...so here are a few :
POWERFUL. UPLIFTING. SPIRITUALLY REVIVING. EYEOPENING. EMOTIONAL. LOVING. INSIGHTFUL. AWAKENING. AND SO MUCH MORE!!!
All that said, I just wanted to share one of the many revelations God blessed me with this weekend. I have already shared this with a few, but Joe thought I should share it with all haha
I love my family. I knew this weekend might be difficult because I have never spent a night away from my three children (not counting time in the hospital when I was giving birth to Jojo and then Lucas) But even then, my family would bring them to me to visit and I only spent about a day away. And I just knew I would miss Joe so much. I can barely stand to be away from him while he goes to work! lol But I had no idea exactly how hard it was going to be. The first night I was there, I awoke at about 2am and had it in mind that I needed to make a bottle for Lucas. Then I came to and realized where I was so, a little sad, I slid back under the covers. The whole weekend I was so happy to be there yet my heart ached for my husband. My arms longed to hold my children & my lips longed to kiss them. We also weren't allowed to use the phone (and had no cell phone service ) so I thought, " They NEED me! Oh how I wish they weren't so far away! Oh how I long to hear their voices!" Then God spoke to my heart. He told me, "Daughter, how much MORE do I miss you when you stray from me? How much MORE do my arms long to hold you and protect you, carry you, comfort you? How much MORE do I long to kiss you with all the blessings I have for you? How much MORE painful is it for me when you don't talk to me everyday? And do not worry about them. They don't NEED you, they need ME. As much as you love them, I love them MORE than you can fathom and they are in My loving hands!" It hit me so hard. Just to know how much my heart ached for my family and knowing God's love for us all is so much more- immeasurable, unconditional, and neverending- and that everytime I FORGET about my Savior or put God at the bottom of my to-do list, He feels a pain so much worse than what I was experiencing!! I realized that for so long, I haven't made time for Him like I should. I wasn't seeking Him like I should. Meanwhile, He longed for ME! He wanted to hold ME in His hands- the same Hands that shaped the world and I distanced myself from Him because of my sin. I don't want to live like that anymore! Father, I come RUNNING into your arms because I know only they can protect me, comfort me, carry me...I want you to shower me with the kisses of your blessings! I want to make time for the One who loves me the most- so much that He would have died still, if it were only me, if it would save me from death!
I just wanted to hare that with you all. Have you made time for Your Father today? Have you talked with Him at all? He longs for YOU! So come running to Him!!!